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Le moment de vérité

Beckett Jamieson découvre qu’il a été adopté lorsqu’un avocat lui remet une lettre de sa mère pour son vingt-et-unième anniversaire. Son vrai nom est Robert Bullen, mais la famille Bullen est impliquée dans des activités criminelles de la pire espèce. Il décide de les faire chuter, mais finit par être roué de coups et temporairement aveugle.

Un agent du Sanctuaire l’emmène dans une maison sécurisée pour guérir. Le Docteur Kayden Summers, agent du Sanctuaire, n’est pas heureux de se retrouver coincé au milieu de nulle part avec un homme inconscient. Lorsque Beckett se réveille, la situation va de mal en pis. Il ne fait pas confiance au médecin et est plus déterminé que jamais à trouver la preuve que sa mère a cachée, et en plus de tout cela, Kayden se sent attiré par le jeune homme déterminé.

Pourront-ils surmonter leurs problèmes et éliminer la menace que représentent les frères Bullen ?

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CHAPITRE UN

— Bon sang, qu’est-ce que je cherche ?

Beckett Jamieson se tenait au centre de la pièce. Il en fit lentement le tour complet, cataloguant autant qu’il en pouvait. Rien ne correspondait à la description qu’elle avait dite sur ce qu’il trouverait ici. Il n’y avait pas de fleuron sculpté, en fait, le lit avait l’air neuf. Probablement beaucoup plus récent que la dernière fois qu’il avait été là, il y a dix-huit ans. Mais elle savait certainement que les choses qu’elle avait connues auraient changé avant son vingt et unième anniversaire. Donc lorsqu’elle avait parlé de sculpture, peut-être que ce n’était pas de la sculpture décorative d’un lit. Il regarda les deux unités sans tiroir qui servaient de tables de chevet. Elles étaient désespérément simples dans leur conception.

— Allez, maman ! Il n’y a rien qui ressemble à quelque chose de taillé dans cette pièce. Aide-moi, là.

Jusqu’à il y a quatre semaines, il ne savait pas que sa mère de naissance lui avait laissé ce puzzle à résoudre. Il savait depuis son dixième anniversaire qu’il avait été adopté, mais il n’avait jamais ressenti la contrainte de parcourir les États-Unis, à la recherche d’une famille nébuleuse ou de ses parents biologiques qui, manifestement, n’avaient pas voulus de lui. Pas quand il avait dix ans et faisait une fixation sur les Tranformers, ni à quinze quand il avait réalisé qu’il était gay, ni à dix-huit quand ses années d’université commençaient tout juste. Vingt-et-un était un âge magique, mais pas vraiment à son intention.

Sa mère et son père, Isla et Derek Jamieson, les gens qui l’avaient pris alors qu’il était un petit enfant, avaient emmené toutes les informations qu’ils avaient pu avoir sur ses vrais parents, dans leurs tombes quelques années auparavant. Tout ce qu’ils avaient dit était que tout deviendrait clair quand il aurait vingt-et-un ans et qu’il serait assez vieux pour être celui qu’il voulait être. Être appelé pour rencontrer Austin Mitchell, apparemment l’avocat de la famille, avait été le catalyseur pour vouloir et avoir besoin d’en savoir plus.

L’avocat « appelez-moi Austin » lui avait tendu un épais dossier qui contenait une lettre dans une enveloppe scellée et un paquet soigneusement enveloppé. L’étiquette sur l’emballage contenait une simple missive : Joyeux vingt-et-un ans, Robert, avec mon amour, Maman.

— Vous connaissiez ma mère biologique ?

Beckett avait toujours parlé d’elle comme ça. Isla Compton était sa vraie mère. La seule constante dans sa vie, fournisseuse de biscuits, de câlins et d’une foultitude d’amour.

— Je la connaissais assez bien, avait dit Austin, d’une manière qui allait de soi, mais Beckett avait pu voir le mouvement convulsif des lèvres et la tristesse dans son expression.

Apparemment, Austin avait assez bien connu sa mère biologique pour être affligé par sa perte. Était-il possible que l’homme plus âgé l’ait connu dans le sens biblique du terme ?

— Étiez-vous…

Beckett avait voulu dire son amant ? Son mari ? Mais cela aurait été malpoli. Et il n’était pas grossier.

— Spécial pour elle ? termina-t-il, sans conviction.

C’était tout ce à quoi il avait pu penser et une relation spéciale aurait pu expliquer pourquoi l’avocat avait été chargé de parler à Beckett lors de son vingt et unième anniversaire. Peut-être que l’homme en face de lui était son père biologique ? Austin, qui avait paru un peu secoué par la question, avait simplement secoué la tête.

— Alors, mon véritable prénom est Robert ?

— Robert Edward Bullen.

Beckett avait considéré le nom et ses implications initiales. Il n’était définitivement pas Robert. Il était Beckett. Beck. En aucune façon, il ne changerait son prénom pour Robert, cela n’arriverait pas dans son avenir. Il y avait eu un minuscule ours en peluche avec la lettre – le genre que vous donniez à un petit enfant pour décorer un lit ou une poussette. Quand Beckett l’avait saisi et avait senti la douce fourrure, il avait soudain souhaité que cela lui ramène des souvenirs d’avant ses quatre ans à la surface. Il n’arrivait pas à se souvenir de la moindre chose et il l’avait reposé sur le bureau.

— Et qu’en est-il de mon père biologique ? avait-il demandé avec précaution.

Dans sa tête, sa mère était une enfant tombée enceinte, sans mari dans le tableau. C’était facile de lui pardonner de l’avoir abandonnée s’il utilisait ce raisonnement.

— Il est toujours en vie, avait répondu Austin.

Beckett avait brusquement relevé les yeux.

— Sait-il à propos de moi ?

— Il savait pour vous. Il pensait que vous étiez mort dans le même accident de voiture que votre mère.

— Alors, elle est bien morte. Elle est morte et j’ai été adopté. Elle ne m’a pas abandonné ?

— Non.

Austin avait soupiré et fermé brièvement les yeux.

— Il n’y a eu aucun abandon. Elle est morte, vous avez survécu.

La voix d’Austin avait été calme et rationnelle. Il avait poursuivi.

— Je l’ai aidée à vous prendre et à vous mettre en sécurité.

Beckett avait cligné des yeux en regardant l’homme. Il n’arrivait vraiment pas à comprendre ça. Cela ressemblait à l’intrigue d’un roman avec un meurtre.

— Vous m’avez mis en sécurité ? Que voulez-vous dire ?

— Je pense que la lettre va vous donner un début d’explication. Je vais vous laisser un peu d’intimité et préparer un peu de café pour le moment où vous serez prêt à parler. L’ordinateur est à vous.

Austin avait quitté la pièce, sans un seul coup d’Å“il en arrière et Beckett avait ouvert le paquet. À l’intérieur, il y avait une simple boîte en bois plate, avec un tampon sombre encré sur le couvercle. Il avait examiné les lettres sur le couvercle et réalisé que c’était ses initiales de naissance, RB. Ouvrant la boîte, il avait trouvé une chaîne. Lourde et en or, c’était certainement une chaîne d’homme et elle était de la taille d’un poignet – le poignet de Beckett.



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Revenant à l’instant présent, Beckett sentit la chaîne. La lourde sensation contre sa peau était rassurante et une connexion à la femme qui l’avait mis au monde. Emma Bullen. La lettre contenait une petite liste d’instructions et les choses habituelles qu’il imaginait qu’une lettre d’explications devait contenir. Il était Robert Bullen, fils de Gregory Bullen, neveu du Sénateur Thomas Bullen et d’Alastair Bullen. Son père biologique était vivant, tout comme ses oncles. C’était l’instruction bizarre qu’il devait chercher un espace sculpté dans son ancienne chambre qui l’avait envoyé au domaine dans les Catskills et vers son père biologique. Bien entendu, il avait fait des recherches avant son arrivée.

Ce que Beckett avait découvert n’était pas vraiment ce qu’il avait espéré trouver, enfin, pas à propos de sa mère. Emma Bullen était morte dans un accident de voiture avec son fils Robert – une mort atroce sur une route tortueuse dans les montagnes, pas très loin du domaine des Bullen. Il n’y avait pas eu de témoins et il n’était rien resté de la voiture, à l’exception d’un véhicule plié et tordu à l’aplomb d’une falaise. Allos, il s’était assis là ; apparemment, il était Robert Bullen et il avait appris tout ce qu’il pouvait sur sa famille.

Gregory Bullen, son père et son oncle, Alastair, étaient deux hommes d’affaires plongés dans tout un tas d’affaires louches. Son autre oncle, Thomas, était un honnête sénateur, un politicien plus blanc que blanc, qui portait haut l’étendard de valeurs morales fortes. Le sénateur n’était pas très proche de ses deux frères, mais même un idiot qui tombait sur Greg et Alastair pouvait voir quel genre d’hommes ils étaient. Des mafieux. Dans tous les sens du terme : extorsions, drogues, prostitution, le tout drapé dans un manteau de respectabilité. Il n’était même pas certain de savoir à quel point les crimes étaient étendus.

Et à présent, il était dans son ancienne chambre, suivant les instructions de cette lettre, gravée dans sa mémoire, cherchant les sculptures qui devaient le mener à Dieu seul savait quoi. Quoi qu’il trouve, avait-elle écrit dans la lettre, il y aurait assez pour faire payer les personnes responsables de sa mort et lui donnerait un moyen de pression contre la famille. Même maintenant, cela provoquait un frisson glacé dans le dos de Beckett. Avait-elle su qu’elle allait mourir ? Cela avait dû être un poids insupportable à tenir sans craquer.

Il y avait eu des photos granuleuses sur Internet à partir des journaux qui dataient de l’époque de la mort d’Emma – les trois frères se tenant à côté de la tombe et de deux cercueils, un grand et un petit. Apparemment, les deux cercueils étaient remplis de quelque chose qui ne s’apparentait à rien de plus qu’une collection d’os brûlé. Les journaux avaient imprimé ça, sans excuses. Le journalisme à sensations à son meilleur.

— Très bien, dit-il doucement à lui-même. Si j’étais dans cette chambre, où aurais-je pu penser trouver un endroit sûr ?

S’approchant de la commode, un autre meuble simple en bois, il fit courir ses doigts dessus. Quand sa mère avait écrit les instructions, il était si petit qu’il n’avait gardé aucun souvenir de ce à quoi sa chambre ressemblait.

— Est-ce que tu vas bien, fils ?

Gregory Bullen se tenait à la porte et Beckett se redressa, immédiatement. Il y avait quelque chose en Gregory qui l’effrayait terriblement. L’homme était bâti comme un immeuble en briques, large et fort, avec chaque année gravée dans sa peau résistante aux intempéries et ses cheveux étaient aussi noirs que la nuit. Imposant. Énergique. Fort.

— Je ne faisais que regarder, dit Beckett en haussant les épaules.

Il laissa Gregory lire tout ce qu’il voulait là-dedans. Son père entra dans la chambre et fit une pause pour regarder autour de lui.

— Robert…

Il le reconnaissait.

— … Ta mère…

Il traça un signe de croix sur sa poitrine.

— … que Dieu ait son âme, adorait cette chambre.

— Vraiment ?

Beckett ne put s’en empêcher. Il était affamé de toute information sur la personne qui lui avait donné la vie. Il choisit même d’ignorer la brûlure instantanée d’aversion qu’il ressentit à l’intérieur de lui d’être appelé Robert.

— Je ne devrais pas dire du mal des morts, mais elle ne s’est jamais adaptée à une grande maison comme ça. Elle était trop simple pour cet endroit et elle aimait cette chambre pour ce qu’elle était : un endroit où elle pouvait être elle-même.

Gregory dit cela avec un léger soupçon de recueillement, mais Beckett aimait à penser qu’il pouvait voir à travers l’intention sous-jacente. Il n’y avait aucun amour dans la voix de Gregory.

— Qu’est-ce que je pensais de la maison quand j’étais ici ? demanda Beckett avec curiosité.

Il pourrait ainsi avoir une idée de ce qu’il en pensait quand il était âgé de quatre ans, avant de continuer à avancer.

— Tu adorais cette maison. Chaque coin était un endroit où se cacher et chaque pièce une aventure.

Cette fois, il y avait une véritable émotion dans la voix de Gregory. De l’affection ? De la colère ? Beckett n’en était pas vraiment certain. Gregory était un homme difficile à saisir.

— Ton oncle et moi sommes attendus à nos réunions. Aimerais-tu nous rejoindre en ville ?

Passer une heure avec le chauffeur conduisant la limousine et Gregory et Alastair Bullen ? Gregory aussi froid que de la glace et dégoulinant de mièvrerie, et Alastair, un putain de harceleur avec une lueur mortelle dans les yeux ? Putain, non. Beckett avait du travail à faire ici. Et pas des moindres, puisqu’il devait trouver toute preuve que sa mère avait cachée dans cette pièce et essayer d’entrer dans l’ordinateur de Gregory pour plus d’informations. Ce dernier essayait de faire un effort, mais Beckett sentit – et pas pour la première fois – qu’il n’y avait rien de plus que de la suspicion dans leurs relations. Après tout, il était revenu après dix-sept ans et bien qu’il ait été prouvé avec un test de paternité qu’il était Robert Bullen, Gregory ne lui avait toujours pas ouvert grand les bras pour accueillir Beckett à la maison. Il y avait eu de sérieuses discussions sur l’endroit où Beckett avait été, qui s’était occupé de lui et de ce dont il se souvenait. Beckett n’avait jamais pensé qu’il serait soulagé qu’il ne lui reste plus de famille à proprement parler.

— Non. Merci, répondit-il agréablement. J’ai une tonne de cours à rattraper.

Beckett souligna sa décision de ce qu’il espérait être un triste sourire et non une grimace forcée. Gregory lui rendit son sourire, bien qu’il n’atteigne pas tout à fait ses yeux. Beckett se demanda ce que l’autre homme allait dire. Il avait l’air d’être prêt pour une certaine effusion émotionnelle, ce qui, à chaque fois que cela arrivait, fichait tout en l’air dans la tête de Beckett.

— Mon fils, le diplômé, dit-il à la place.

Puis, il tourna les talons et partit.

Beckett attendit jusqu’à ce que la voiture s’éloigne, regarda tandis que la limousine avec ses lignes incurvées disparaissait en bas de la longue route. Il ajouta cinq minutes supplémentaires, puis continua ses recherches dans la chambre. Cette fois, cependant, il était vraiment libre de rechercher et il tira les meubles loin des murs.

Son marché avec l’assistante du procureur du district était de fournir des informations en échange d’aide pour sortir de là. Il avait déjà vu ce qui arrivait à quelqu’un qui s’en prenait aux Bullen. La mort d’Elizabeth lui avait montré qu’il était facile pour quelqu’un de mourir des mains de quiconque les Bullen embauchaient. Il ne songeait pas une seule minute qu’être le fils prodigue pourrait le sauver s’ils découvraient pourquoi il était vraiment ici.

Ce gars, hier, Dale lui avait promis qu’il pourrait l’aider. Tout ce dont Beckett avait besoin de faire était de trouver la preuve que sa mère avait écrit et qu’elle avait réunie. Il se demanda ce qu’il cherchait. Était-ce un disque ? Cela avait fait dix-sept ans auparavant. Si c’était un disque, c’était probablement un énorme paquet et il espérait du fond du cÅ“ur qu’il ne serait pas détérioré au point de ne pas être lisible. Peut-être était-ce des notes ou des photos ?

Frustré de ne rien avoir trouvé, il se pencha contre l’armoire et laissa retomber sa tête. Pourquoi ne pouvait-il pas se souvenir davantage de son enfance ? Pourquoi sa mémoire était-elle vide ? Levant la tête vers le ciel à nouveau, il poussa un juron et supplia de trouver l’inspiration. Ce fut alors qu’il le vit.

Le médaillon plafonné autour du lustre. En bois sculpté et peint d’un blanc brillant. Était-ce possible que ce soit l’endroit ? Il n’y avait qu’un seul moyen de le savoir. Tirant la chaise du bureau jusque sous la lampe, il grimpa dessus pour atteindre la sculpture. Il y avait une lèvre installée autour du bord qui, vu du sol, semblait aller jusqu’au plafond, mais qui en fait, laissait un espace aussi large qu’un doigt pour l’atteindre. Il espérait du fond du cÅ“ur ne pas être sur le point de glisser ses doigts dans des toiles d’araignées vivantes et autres bestioles effrayantes. L’excitation le fit pousser sa main dans la fente et en faire le tour. Il y avait quelque chose là. Une enveloppe plate ? Des papiers ? Se dressant sur la pointe des pieds, il poussa sa main plus loin et réussit à tirer sur le document avec ses doigts. Il arriva finalement à le libérer avec un nuage de poussière qui fit larmoyer ses yeux et titiller son nez. Précautionneusement, il vérifia s’il y avait plus dans le médaillon, mais tout ce qu’il sentit était des toiles. Satisfait d’avoir tout trouvé, il sauta au bas de la chaise. Avec une main tremblante, il sortit le seul petit bout de papier de l’intérieur. Soupirant, il réalisa que c’était de nouvelles notes cryptiques. Il commença à les lire. Il ne vit jamais qui c’était. N’eut jamais une chance de se protéger. Un poing arriva sur le côté de sa tête et quand la douleur le fit tomber à genoux, il sut qu’il était foutu.

— Putain, qu’est-ce que tu fais ?

La voix d’Alastair. Manifestement, il n’était pas parti avec Gregory. Cela avait été un mensonge pour lui dire qu’il partait, ou un changement de dernière minute. Peu importe. Alastair avait une arme et il la pointait sur Beckett.

Beckett recula et se précipita vers la salle de bain, refermant la porte derrière lui, la maintenant close avec son corps. Il n’y avait pas de verrou. Merde ! Qui n’avait pas de verrou sur la porte de sa salle de bain ? La porte en bois massif pourrait peut-être retenir une balle, mais même ainsi, il choisit de s’en éloigner, juste au cas où.

Merde ! Que diable allait-il faire ? Pourquoi n’avait-il pas essayé de lui parler pour se sortir de tout cela ? Il aurait juste pu dire qu’il était… Merde ! Il n’avait pas d’excuse toute prête.

— Arrête d’agir comme un idiot, Robert, et sors de la salle de bain.

La voix d’Alastair était dure et impatiente.

— Beckett ! Mon nom est Beckett Jamieson, cria-t-il en se penchant plus fort contre la porte tandis qu’il sortait son téléphone portable de sa poche.

Il n’y avait aucun moyen de sortir de cette salle de bain. Pas de fenêtre donnant sur l’extérieur. L’appel se connecta rapidement et il en laissa échapper autant qu’il le pouvait.

— Je suis pris au piège dans une salle de bain. J’ai merdé et j’ai peur. Je ne peux pas sortir…

Il ne termina jamais son appel. La porte fut ouverte de force, son propre corps léger ne fit rien pour retenir son oncle aussi fort qu’un ours et le téléphone vola. Il alla s’écraser contre la porcelaine de la baignoire et tout aussi brusquement qu’il s’était envolé de sa main, il gisait sur le sol, en morceaux.

La porte le poussa vers l’intérieur et il tenta d’agripper quelque chose pour éviter de tomber, mais fut seulement arrêté par Alastair qui l’attrapa par le cou et les cheveux. Il lui fit une prise d’étranglement et le souleva du sol si durement que Beckett vit danser des points lumineux devant ses yeux.

— Putain, je le savais !

Alastair cracha ces mots avec colère et d’un geste de la main, Beckett se sentit glisser dans l’inconscience.



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Quelque chose mordait dans ses poignets et ça faisait mal. Corde ? Ficelle ? Quelque chose de dur et d’impitoyable. La conscience lui revenait petit à petit et du sang inondait sa langue. Ses mains étaient attachées et il était affalé sur la même chaise qu’il avait utilisée pour atteindre le plafond. Sa gorge lui faisait mal. Vraiment. Douloureuse.

— … ordinateur. Les caméras nous l’ont montré.

— Cela ne signifie pas…

— Greg, c’est pour ça que je t’ai dit que je devais rester ici et pourquoi je t’ai rappelé afin que tu rentres. Je le surveille depuis presque vingt-quatre heures et il m’a donné que de la merde. Le fils prodigue est de retour et tu n’es même pas un peu soupçonneux ? N’as-tu donc rien appris ? Merde ! Tu as toujours été le lâche dans cette famille. Premièrement, Emma-l’innocente, puis Thomas et cette salope d’Élisabeth et maintenant ton monstre de fils. Mes deux frères sont des idiots…

— Ne me parle pas comme ça…

— Attends ! Joli garçon s’est réveillé.

Beckett cligna des yeux en direction de son oncle, le visage d’Alastair se tordit sur un rictus. Il était tout près, dans l’espace personnel de Beckett et il pouvait sentir l’odeur écÅ“urante de l’eau de Cologne dont Alastair devait s’asperger. Soudain, il souhaita être à nouveau inconscient. Alastair avait posé des questions, lui donnant des coups de poing et le laissant ligoté dans la salle glaciale avec les fenêtres grandes ouvertes. Il avait atteint ses limites. Et maintenant, Gregory était là.

— Que… commença Beckett.

Il pouvait essayer de jouer les innocents. Il n’était certainement pas trop tard pour récupérer un certain contrôle de la situation.

— Que s’est-il passé ? Qu’est-ce que m’a fait Oncle Alastair ? Dis-lui de me détacher.

Alastair recula en riant et Gregory haussa simplement les épaules. D’accord. Faire appel à Gregory à propos de son oncle n’allait pas marcher.

— Papa ?

Là ! Se concentrer sur l’homme qui était responsable de son existence. Un éclair de douleur traversa le visage de Gregory.

— Alastair ?

Beckett regarda Gregory interroger son frère, mais Alastair secoua la tête. Pendant un moment, Beckett avait senti qu’il était connecté avec son père, mais cela n’avait pas duré.

— Non, Greg. Je ne sais pas ce qui se passe.

Alastair tendit l’enveloppe ouverte à Gregory qui en sortit la simple feuille de papier et une clef.

— Peut-être que tu vas dire à mon frère ce que c’est ? cracha Alastair et Beckett tressaillit lorsque son oncle se pencha plus près.

— Quelque chose dont je me souviens quand j’avais quatre ans, mentit Beckett.

— CONNERIES !

La gifle qui accompagna ce mot succinct fit tourner la tête de Beckett de l’autre côté et son cou protesta à la douleur vive.

— Lis-le à haute voix, Greg. Qu’est-ce que ça dit ?

— Tu auras besoin de l’autre, mais tu sais où il est. Le Texas l’a, lut Gregory. Puis d’autres trucs en lettres et en chiffres.

Il froissa le papier et le jeta sur le sol. Il retourna la clef dans sa main. Elle était petite et en argent, rien d’extraordinaire. Beckett vit Gregory la mettre dans sa poche.

— L’autre quoi ? cria Alastair dans l’oreille de Beckett. Une autre clef ? Où au Texas ? Qui connais-tu au Texas ? À quoi sert cette clef ?

— Aucune… commença Beckett, mais Alastair le frappa à nouveau, encore et encore.

Toujours avec les mêmes questions. Où ? Qui ? Pourquoi ? Sa tête était ballottée d’un côté à l’autre et de la bile remonta dans sa gorge. Cela semblait être la fin des choses, après une journée de question et à supporter la douleur, Alastair était à ses limites.

— Merde, Alastair ! Qu’est-ce qui ne va pas avec toi ? Tu vas le tuer !

Même Gregory semblait choqué par le niveau de colère d’Alastair et Beckett sentit une lueur d’espoir que son père fasse un pas en avant et arrête tout ça.

— Tu veux savoir ? Tu veux vraiment savoir ce que cette petite merde a fait ?

— Quoi ?

Gregory avait l’air perdu.

— Je l’ai fait suivre. Il était à l’aise avec Élisabeth, tu sais ça, mais j’ai fait avec. Puis il a eu cet entretien hier avec un enquêteur privé, un gars dans un centre commercial et putain, personne ne sait ce qu’il lui a remis. Les caméras de sécurité l’ont pris en train d’utiliser ton ordinateur dans ton bureau, Greg. À copier des dossiers.

Un autre coup et Beckett sentit la bile monter en lui. Il allait être malade. Alastair le remit sur ses pieds.

— Dis-lui ce que tu faisais, sale petite merde…

— Étudier…

Beckett laissa échapper un seul mot. L’expression d’Alastair montrait sa dérision.

— Dans tes dossiers privés, Greg.

— Papa ?

Beckett plaqua sa meilleure expression suppliante sur son visage. Afin d’atteindre si possible la connexion entre eux. Il n’y avait rien dans les yeux de Gregory. Aucune compassion ni d’affection paternelle. Juste de la glace.

— Tu n’es jamais venu ici pour me retrouver, n’est-ce pas, Robert ?

La voix de Gregory était plate. Il n’y avait aucun doute dans ce qu’il disait.

— T’a-t-elle dit de venir ici ? Qu’est-ce que tu es venu faire ici ? Me tuer ? Venger ce qui lui est arrivé ?

— Non…

Tout le souffle quitta son corps comme Gregory terminait ce qu’Alastair avait commencé, alors même que celui-ci le tenait. Le barrage était rompu et la haine et la violence que Gregory avait dissimulées derrière son masque de civilité ressortaient en force. Les coups de poing qu’il lançait arrivaient droit sur la poitrine de Beckett, la douleur rapide et aiguë.

— Les as-tu montrés à quelqu’un ? Qu’as-tu fait avec les dossiers ?

— Je n’ai rien fait… J’étudiais…

Beckett sentit sa conscience se déliter. Petit à petit, sa vision devint floue et la seule chose qui lui permettait de rester debout était la poigne qu’Alastair avait sur son bras. Le coup suivant tira violemment sur sa clavicule et il sentit quelque chose se déchirer et claquer dans son bras.

— Je t’ai dit qu’il parlait à Élisabeth. Merde, Greg ! Je t’ai dit que nous aurions dû l’enfermer dès qu’il est arrivé ici.

Alastair relâcha son bras et Beckett tomba sur la chaise. Il recula avec, jusqu’à ce que le dos en bois touche le lit et c’est seulement par pur effort de volonté que Beckett resta à la verticale.

— Il devra mourir. Comme Élisabeth.

— D’accord. Je n’ai pas l’estomac assez solide pour ça…

Greg n’avait pas l’air triste ni affligé. Ses mots étaient amers et saccadés.

— Découvre ce qu’il sait. Ce qu’il a fait.

— Compris, mon frère. Laisse-le-moi.

Il y avait une joie malsaine dans la voix d’Alastair. C’était un homme qui prenait plaisir à blesser et tuer.

— Je veux des noms, des numéros et quand tu auras fini, dépose son corps dans la montagne, dit froidement Greg.

Beckett entendit les mots et un frisson de frayeur s’enroula autour de sa colonne vertébrale. Une terreur abrutissante et consumant tout. Il releva la tête, à peine capable de voir à travers la fente de ses yeux gonflés. Greg le dévisageait.

— Tu aurais pu tout avoir, Robert. Tout cela.

Puis tout partit en vrille.

Des cris. Des ordres. Un fusil. Un tir. Puis des bras puissants qui le mettaient debout et un murmure.

— Je te tiens, gamin.

Beckett se laissa relever, sa seule pensée consciente fixée sur la clef et la lettre. Il tomba à genoux, des jurons de celui qui le tenait jaillirent dans l’air et il rampa vers l’endroit où Gregory gisait dans une mare de sang qui s’élargissait. Beckett arracha la lettre, puis fouilla, malgré le sang et le reste pour trouver la clef. Il ne pouvait rien voir dans le flou de douleurs et il tâtonnait pour trouver son chemin, repoussant le tissu et le sang collant.

— Merde ! Gamin…

— Attendez… !

Il cria le mot dans sa tête, mais tout ce qui sortit de ses lèvres fendues et ensanglantées fut à peine un gémissement.

— Nous devons y aller. Dale, pour l’amour de Dieu…

Les doigts de Beckett se refermèrent sur la petite clef et avec un frisson de triomphe, il vacilla en se redressant.

— Vous n’allez pas le prendre…

La voix d’Alastair, le bruit d’une bagarre et Beckett fut poussé violemment de derrière. Alors qu’il tombait, sa tête rencontra le bord de la commode et sa dernière pensée consciente fut qu’il était vivant et qu’il avait la lettre et la clef. Le reste se règlerait tout seul.



Il Momento Della Verità - Santuario libro 3 - Ora Disponibile



Il Momento Della Verità

Beckett Jamieson scopre di essere stato adottato quando, al compimento del suo ventunesimo anno, un avvocato gli consegna una lettera della madre. Il suo vero nome è Robert Bullen. Peccato, però, che la famiglia a cui dovrebbe appartenere sia coinvolta in attività criminali della peggior specie. Robert decide di contribuire a distruggerli ma finisce in ospedale, pestato a sangue e temporaneamente cieco. Un agente del Santuario lo accompagna in una casa protetta dove potrà riprendersi.

Il dottor Kayden Summers, agente operativo del Santuario, non è per niente contento di ritrovarsi bloccato in mezzo al nulla insieme a un uomo privo di conoscenza. Quando però Beckett si sveglia, la situazione sembra peggiorare ancora, perché il giovane non si fida di lui ed è più determinato che mai a scoprire cosa nascondesse la madre, senza contare l’attrazione che nasce fra loro.

Riusciranno a superare le loro divergenze e a eliminare la minaccia rappresentata dai fratelli Bullen?

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Traduzione: Claudia Milani, M.A. Diotta
Casa Editrice: Love Lane Books
Genere: m/m
Prezzo: EURO 3,29


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Estratto

Capitolo 1

“Cosa diavolo sto cercando esattamente?” In piedi al centro della stanza, Beckett Jamieson si voltò lentamente e fece un giro completo su se stesso, catalogando più cose possibile. Non c’era niente che corrispondesse alla descrizione che lei gli aveva lasciato. Nessuna decorazione in legno intagliato. Il letto sembrava addirittura nuovo, probabilmente molto più di quanto lo fosse diciotto anni prima, l’ultima volta che lui era stato lì. Ma di sicuro lei aveva previsto che qualcosa potesse cambiare per quando lui avrebbe compiuto i ventuno anni, quindi l’intaglio di cui parlava forse non era una decorazione del letto. Guardò le due cassettiere che fungevano da comodini. La semplicità del loro design era sconfortante.

“Dai, Mamma. In questa stanza non c’è nulla che si avvicini a un intaglio. Dammi una mano.” Fino a quattro settimane prima non aveva la minima idea che la madre naturale gli avesse lasciato quel puzzle da comporre. Sapeva di essere stato adottato sin da quando aveva dieci anni, ma non gli era mai saltato in mente di andare in giro per gli Stati Uniti alla ricerca di un fantomatico nucleo familiare d’origine che non lo aveva mai davvero voluto. Non ci aveva pensato a dieci anni quando era in fissa con i Transformers, non a quindici quando aveva capito di essere gay, né a diciotto quando stava cominciando la sua vita al college. Il momento magico era giunto al compimento dei ventuno anni, e non per suo volere.



Isla e Derek Jamieson, le persone che lo avevano preso con loro quando era piccolo, erano morti pochi anni prima e forse avevano portato con loro nella tomba ogni informazione riguardo i suoi veri genitori. L’unica indicazione che gli avevano offerto era che tutto si sarebbe chiarito quando avrebbe compiuto ventuno anni e sarebbe stato abbastanza grande da scegliere chi voleva essere. E quando era stato convocato da Austin Mitchell, a quanto pareva l’avvocato di famiglia, si era scoperto a volerne, e doverne, sapere di più.

L’avvocato – “Chiamami Austin” – gli aveva consegnato un grosso faldone che conteneva una lettera chiusa in una busta sigillata e un pacchetto confezionato con cura. Il pacco riportava un semplice messaggio: Buon ventunesimo compleanno, Robert. Con amore, mamma.

“Conosceva la mia madre biologica?” Beckett l’aveva sempre considerata come tale. La sua vera mamma era Isla Compton. L’unica costante nella sua vita; dispensatrice di dolci, abbracci e di un affetto enorme.

“Sì, abbastanza bene.” Austin lo aveva detto come se fosse un dato di fatto, ma Beckett si era accorto di come l’uomo avesse contratto le labbra e della tristezza che gli si era dipinta sul viso. Era evidente che Austin aveva conosciuto sua madre abbastanza bene da essere addolorato per la sua perdita. Era possibile che l’uomo più anziano l’avesse conosciuta in senso biblico?

“Era…” Beckett avrebbe voluto dire il suo amante? suo marito? ma sarebbe stato scortese e lui non voleva essere scortese, “… speciale per lei?” aveva quindi terminato in tono sommesso. Era tutto ciò che gli era venuto in mente e una relazione speciale poteva spiegare perché l’avvocato fosse stato incaricato di parlare con lui una volta compiuti i ventuno anni. Forse quell’uomo maturo era il suo padre biologico? Austin, all’apparenza leggermente colpito dalla domanda, aveva semplicemente scrollato la testa.

“Quindi il mio vero nome è Robert?”

“Robert Edward Bullen.”

Beckett aveva soppesato il nome e le sue dirette implicazioni. Non si sentiva per nulla un Robert. Lui era Beckett. Beck. E non aveva nessuna intenzione di cambiare il suo nome, né in quel momento né mai. Assieme alla lettera c’era un orsacchiotto di peluche, di quelli che si usavano per decorare una culla o una carrozzina. Beckett lo aveva preso tra le mani e, accarezzandogli la pelliccia morbida, si era sorpreso a desiderare che potesse far riaffiorare i ricordi di quando aveva quattro anni. Non era successo e lo aveva posato sulla scrivania.

“E del mio padre biologico che può dirmi?” aveva chiesto poi con prudenza. Nella sua mente la madre era una ragazzina rimasta incinta senza un marito da includere nel quadro. Stando in quel modo le cose sarebbe stato più facile perdonarle di averlo abbandonato.

“È ancora vivo,” aveva detto Austin e Beckett aveva immediatamente sollevato lo sguardo su di lui.

“Sa della mia esistenza?”

“Lo sapeva. Pensava fossi morto nello stesso incidente stradale in cui ha perso la vita tua madre.”

“Quindi lei è morta. È morta e io sono stato adottato. Non ha rinunciato a me.”

“No.” Austin aveva sospirato e chiuso per un attimo gli occhi. “Non c’è stata nessuna rinuncia. Lei è morta e tu sei sopravvissuto.” Il suo tono di voce era stato calmo e razionale. Poi aveva continuato: “L’ho aiutata prendendoti con me e traendoti in salvo.”

Beckett aveva guardato l’uomo sbattendo le palpebre. Non riusciva davvero a capire. Gli sembrava la trama di un giallo. “Mi ha tratto in salvo? Che vuol dire?”

“Penso che la lettera comincerà a darti delle spiegazioni. Adesso ti lascio da solo e vado a preparare del caffè per quando sarai pronto a parlare. Il computer è a tua disposizione.” Austin aveva lasciato la stanza senza voltarsi indietro e Beckett aveva aperto il pacchetto. Al suo interno c’era una semplice scatola piatta in legno sul cui coperchio era stampato un timbro a inchiostro scuro. Dopo aver esaminato le lettere, Beckett si era reso conto che erano le iniziali del suo vero nome: RB. Sollevando il coperchio della scatola aveva trovato un braccialetto. Pesante e d’oro, era senza dubbio da uomo, della misura perfetta per essere portato al polso. Il suo polso.



Catapultato di nuovo nel presente, Beckett cercò il braccialetto. La sensazione del suo peso contro la pelle era rassicurante, nonché una connessione con Emma Bullen, la donna che lo aveva messo al mondo. Nella lettera c’era scritto poco: solo una lista di istruzioni e le solite cose che Beckett immaginava potesse contenere una lettera di spiegazioni. Lui era Robert Bullen, figlio di Gregory Bullen, nipote del senatore Thomas Bullen e di Alastair Bullen. Suo padre biologico era vivo e così i suoi zii. Ciò che aveva portato Beckett nella villa sulle Catskills, e da suo padre, era stata la strana indicazione secondo la quale avrebbe dovuto cercare uno spazio intagliato nella sua vecchia camera. Ovviamente, prima di arrivare, aveva fatto le sue ricerche.

Ciò che aveva scoperto non corrispondeva affatto a quanto sperava; non in relazione a sua madre, perlomeno. Emma Bullen era morta in un incidente stradale insieme con il figlio Robert, bruciata viva lungo una strada a tornanti sulle montagne non troppo lontano da villa Bullen. Senza alcun testimone, tutto ciò che era rimasto dell’auto erano state delle lamiere contorte e annerite sul fondo di un burrone. A quel punto Beckett aveva fatto un passo indietro e aveva cercato di scoprire quanto possibile sulla famiglia di Robert Bullen.

Suo padre Gregory e suo zio Alastair erano due uomini d’affari con le mani in pasta in una miriade di settori. L’altro zio, Thomas, era un rispettabile senatore, un politico candido e immacolato che basava il suo programma su forti valori etici. Il senatore non aveva grandi contatti con i fratelli, ma persino uno stupido che fosse incappato per caso in Greg e Alastair avrebbe intuito che razza di uomini fossero. Mafia. Nel vero senso della parola. Estorsione, droga, prostituzione; tutto avvolto da un manto di rispettabilità. Beckett non era nemmeno sicuro fin dove si allargassero le ramificazioni dei loro crimini.

E adesso lui era lì, in quella stanza da letto, a seguire le istruzioni di una lettera impresse a fuoco vivo nella memoria, e alla ricerca di un qualche intaglio che lo guidasse Dio solo sapeva dove. Secondo quanto Emma aveva scritto nella lettera, qualsiasi cosa avesse trovato sarebbe bastata a farla pagare ai responsabili della sua morte e lo avrebbe messo in una posizione di vantaggio nei confronti della famiglia. E, anche in quel momento, sentì un brivido lungo la schiena a quel pensiero. Lei sapeva che stava per morire? Doveva essere stato un peso enorme da portare senza crollare.

Aveva visto delle foto sgranate su internet, prese dai giornali che risalivano ai tempi della morte di Emma: i tre fratelli in piedi in un cimitero e due bare, una grande e una piccola. Apparentemente entrambe non contenevano che un mucchietto di ossa carbonizzate. L’avevano scritto nero su bianco, senza alcuna remora. Sensazionalismo giornalistico alla massima potenza.

“Va bene,” si disse a bassa voce. “Se fossi stato in questa stanza, quale mi sarebbe sembrato un posto sicuro?”

Raggiunse la cassettiera, un altro semplice mobile in legno, e fece scorrere le dita lungo la venatura. Quando sua madre aveva scritto le istruzioni, lui era talmente piccolo da aver completamente dimenticato come potesse presentarsi la stanza a quei tempi.

“Stai bene, figliolo?” Gregory Bullen si materializzò davanti alla porta e Beckett si irrigidì all’istante. C’era qualcosa nella presenza di Gregory che lo spaventava a morte. L’uomo anziano aveva la stazza di un armadio, largo e forte, la pelle segnata da anni di rughe, capelli neri come la notte. Imponente. Energico. Possente.

“Stavo solo dando un’occhiata,” rispose Beckett con un’alzata di spalle. Gregory poteva interpretare la frase come voleva. L’uomo entrò nella stanza e si fermò a guardarlo.

“Robert,” disse comprensivo. “Tua madre,” si fece il segno della croce, “pace all’anima sua, amava questa stanza.”

“Davvero?” non poté fare a meno di chiedere lui. Era alla disperata ricerca di qualsiasi informazione sulla persona che gli aveva dato la vita. Scelse persino di ignorare l’immediata fiamma di disgusto che gli si era accesa dentro nel sentirsi chiamare Robert.

“Non dovrei parlar male dei morti, ma lei non era adatta a vivere in una casa così sontuosa. Era una persona troppo semplice per questo luogo e amava questa stanza per quello che rappresentava: un posto nel quale essere se stessa.” Gregory aveva parlato con un accenno di affetto, ma a Beckett piacque pensare di essere riuscito a scorgere l’intento recondito dietro le parole. Dalla voce del padre, infatti, non trapelava nessuna nostalgia per un amore perduto.

“Che pensavo della casa quando abitavo qui?” chiese Beckett con curiosità. Tanto valeva farsi un’idea di come era a quattro anni, prima che venisse portato altrove.

“Amavi questa casa. Ogni suo angolo era un nascondiglio e ogni stanza un’avventura.” Questa volta la voce di Gregory trasmetteva un’emozione genuina. Affetto? Rabbia? Beckett non sapeva a dirlo con certezza. Il padre era una persona difficile da interpretare. L’uomo continuò: “Io e tuo zio abbiamo degli incontri d’affari. Ti andrebbe di unirti a noi in città?”

E trascorrere un’ora nella limousine con autista in compagnia dei fratelli terribili? Gregory freddo come il ghiaccio e per di più viscido, e Alastair un dannato prepotente con la morte dipinta negli occhi? Cazzo, no! Beckett aveva del lavoro da portare a termine lì a casa. Non da ultimo trovare le prove che sua madre aveva nascosto in quella stanza e cercare di entrare nel computer di Gregory per carpirne altre informazioni. Gregory si stava sforzando, ma non per la prima volta Beckett avvertì che la loro relazione era fondata esclusivamente sul sospetto. In fin dei conti era ritornato dopo diciassette anni e nonostante un test di paternità avesse provato che era davvero Robert Bullen, Gregory sembrava essere ancora pronto ad accoglierlo. C’erano state discussioni serie su dove Beckett fosse stato, su chi si fosse preso cura di lui e su cosa ricordasse. Beckett non aveva mai immaginato che si sarebbe sentito così sollevato di non avere più di una famiglia di cui parlare.

“No. Ti ringrazio,” rispose in tono cordiale. “Ho una montagna di cose da studiare.” Sottolineò la frase con quello che sperava fosse un sorriso afflitto e non un ghigno forzato. Gregory ricambiò anche se il sorriso non si estese ai suoi occhi. Beckett si chiese cosa avrebbe detto a quel punto. Il padre sembrava prepararsi a una di quelle esternazioni emotive che non mancavano mai di incasinargli la testa.

“Mio figlio, il laureato,” dichiarò invece prima di girare sui tacchi e lasciare la stanza.

Beckett attese che la limousine si allontanasse, fissandola fino a che le sue linee curve non furono svanite oltre il viale d’accesso. Altri cinque minuti, poi riprese a setacciare la stanza. Ora, però, aveva tutta la libertà di farlo e ne approfittò per scostare i mobili dalle pareti.

Il patto con il sostituto procuratore distrettuale prevedeva che avrebbe fornito informazioni in cambio di un aiuto per riuscire a cavarsela. Aveva già visto cosa accadeva a chi incrociava i Bullen sulla propria strada: la morte di Elisabeth gli aveva dimostrato con quanta facilità si moriva per mano delle persone assoldate dalla famiglia. Non lo aveva sfiorato neppure per un attimo il pensiero che essere il figliol prodigo avrebbe potuto salvarlo, se avessero scoperto il vero motivo per cui si trovava lì. Anche il tizio che aveva incontrato il giorno prima, Dale, aveva promesso di dargli una mano, e tutto ciò che Beckett voleva in quel momento era trovare le prove lasciate da sua madre e poi andare via. Si chiese cosa stesse cercando davvero. Un dischetto? Di certo si trattava di qualcosa che risaliva a diciassette anni prima. Se fosse stato un dischetto era probabilmente un enorme floppy disk che Beckett sperava con tutto se stesso non si fosse deteriorato al punto da essere illeggibile. Magari si trattava di appunti, oppure di foto?

Frustrato per non aver ancora trovato nulla, Beckett si appoggiò al comò e abbassò la testa. Perché non riusciva a ricordare neanche un particolare della sua infanzia? Perché la sua mente era una tabula rasa? Rialzò il capo al cielo, imprecando e invocando una qualche ispirazione. Fu allora che lo vide.

Il rosone attorno al lampadario. Legno leggermente intagliato ridipinto di bianco. Possibile che fosse quella la collocazione? C’era un solo modo per scoprirlo. Spostò la sedia dalla specchiera per posizionarla sotto il lampadario e si arrampicò fino a raggiungere la decorazione. Attorno all’orlo del rosone c’era un bordo che, osservato dal basso, sembrava incontrare il soffitto, ma che in realtà lasciava uno spazio abbastanza largo da poterci infilare un dito. Sperò come un dannato di non essere prossimo a toccare fili scoperti o ragni o chissà quali insetti schifosi. Eccitato, spinse tutta la mano all’interno e cominciò a farla scorrere. C’era qualcosa. Una busta piatta? Documenti? Facendo forza sulle dita dei piedi spinse la mano ancora più avanti e riuscì a estrarre l’oggetto, sollevando uno sbuffo di polvere che gli irritò gli occhi e solleticò il naso. Provò con cautela a cercare qualcos’altro dentro il rosone ma le sue dita incontrarono solo dei fili. Soddisfatto per aver trovato qualcosa, saltò giù dalla sedia e con mano tremante tirò fuori l’unico foglio che c’era all’interno. Sospirò: per lo più si trattava di altri appunti indecifrabili, ma cominciò lo stesso a leggere.

Non vide chi era. Non ebbe nemmeno il tempo di abbassarsi. Un pugno lo raggiunse alla tempia, e il dolore che lo costrinse in ginocchio gli fece capire che era fottuto.

“Che cazzo stai facendo?” sibilò la voce di Alastair. Era chiaro che non fosse andato con Gregory. Forse era stata una bugia, oppure c’era stato un cambio di programma all’ultimo minuto. In ogni modo, Alastair aveva una pistola e la teneva puntata contro di lui.

Beckett fece uno scatto all’indietro e si precipitò all’interno del bagno, sbattendo la porta e tenendola chiusa con il peso del suo corpo. Non c’era la serratura. Ma chi era che non aveva una serratura alla porta del bagno? Il legno era solido e avrebbe impedito a un proiettile di passare, ma Beckett dibatté se non fosse meglio allontanarsi dalla porta per precauzione.

Merda. Che diavolo stava facendo? Perché non aveva cercato di spiegarsi? Avrebbe potuto dire che stava solo… cazzo. Non si era preparato neanche una scusa.

“Smettila di fare lo stupido, Robert, ed esci dal bagno.” La voce di Alastair era dura e impaziente.

“Beckett. Mi chiamo Beckett Jamieson,” urlò lui addossandosi contro la porta mentre tirava fuori dalla tasca il cellulare. Il bagno non presentava alcuna via d’uscita e neppure finestre che dessero sull’esterno. La chiamata si collegò velocemente e lui disse tutto quello che gli venne in mente: “Sono intrappolato in bagno. Ho fatto un casino e sono terrorizzato. Non posso uscire da…” Non riuscì a finire. La porta venne spalancata ‒ la sua figura esile non poteva nulla contro la furia di quell’orso che era lo zio ‒ e il telefono volò via. Andò a sbattere contro la vasca da bagno e di colpo come era saltato via dalle sue mani, giacque in pezzi sul pavimento.

La pressione esercitata contro la porta spinse Beckett all’interno della stanza. Per non cadere dovette aggrapparsi a qualcosa, ma Alastair lo bloccò, mettendogli le mani al collo e tirandolo per i capelli. La presa di Alastair lo stava soffocando mentre l’uomo lo alzava da terra con tanta forza che Beckett cominciò a vedere dei puntini neri davanti agli occhi.

“Lo sapevo, cazzo!” Alastair calcò l’uscita con un tono rabbioso e, mentre continuava a stringergli la mano, Beckett sentì i sensi venir meno.



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Qualcosa gli mordeva i polsi e faceva male. Corda? Spago? Di qualunque cosa si trattasse era duro e inesorabile. Stava riprendendo coscienza poco alla volta e sentiva la lingua impastata di sangue. Aveva le mani legate ed era accasciato sulla stessa sedia che aveva usato per raggiungere il soffitto. Anche la gola gli faceva male. Davvero male.

“… computer. Ce l’hanno mostrato le telecamere.”

“Questo non significa…”

“Greg, questo è il motivo per cui ti ho detto che sarei rimasto e perché ti ho richiamato dalla città. Gli sono stato incollato per quasi ventiquattrore e non ha fatto altro che dirmi stronzate. Il figliol prodigo ritorna e tu non sei nemmeno un po’ sospettoso? Non hai imparato niente? Cazzo, no. Sei sempre stato l’anello debole di questa famiglia. Prima Emma tutta innocentina, poi Thomas e quella puttanella di Elisabeth, adesso questo tuo fenomeno di figlio. Ho due idioti per fratelli…”

“Non parlarmi in questo modo…”

“Aspetta. Bel faccino si è svegliato.”

Beckett sbatté gli occhi all’indirizzo dello zio; il viso di Alastair si deformò in un ghigno. L’uomo era vicinissimo alla sua faccia, tanto che riusciva a sentire chiaramente l’odore dell’acqua di colonia che si era rovesciato addosso. All’improvviso desiderò essere ancora privo di sensi. Alastair lo aveva subissato di domande mentre lo prendeva a pugni e lo teneva legato in quella stanza terribilmente fredda e con le finestre spalancate. Aveva raggiunto il suo limite e ora era arrivato anche Gregory.

“Che cos…” cominciò a dire. Poteva provare e fingersi innocente. Magari non era troppo tardi per recuperare un minimo di controllo sulla situazione. “Cosa è successo? Che cosa mi sta facendo lo zio Alastair? Digli di slegarmi.”

Alastair sorrise e fece un passo indietro mentre Gregory si strinse semplicemente nelle spalle. Okay. Rivolgersi a Gregory perché intervenisse sullo zio non avrebbe funzionato.

“Papà?” Ecco. Meglio concentrarsi sul rapporto filiale.

Un lampo di dolore attraversò il viso di Gregory. “Alastair?” Beckett lo guardò rivolgersi al fratello, ma questi scosse la testa. Per un momento si era sentito vicino al padre, ma era durato poco.

“No, Greg. Non finché non so cosa cazzo è questo.” Alastair porse a Gregory la busta aperta e l’uomo ne estrasse un pezzo di carta e una chiave. “Perché non dici a mio fratello di cosa si tratta?” sbottò poi rivolto a lui mentre gli si avvicinava. Beckett sussultò.

“Un ricordo di quando avevo quattro anni,” mentì.

“Tutte. Cazzate.” Lo schiaffo che accompagnò la frase piegò la testa di Beckett da un lato, causandogli una staffilata di dolore al collo. “Leggila a voce alta, Greg. Che dice?”

“Hai bisogno dell’altra, ma sai dove si trova. Ce l’ha Texas,” lesse Gregory. “Poi c’è scritta della roba in lettere e numeri.” Accartocciò il foglietto e lo buttò sul pavimento. Si rigirò la chiave tra le mani. Era piccola e argentata; niente di speciale. Beckett fissò Gregory mentre se la infilava in tasca.

“L’altra cosa?” gli urlò Alastair nelle orecchie. “Un’altra chiave? Dove in Texas? Chi conosci del Texas? A cosa serve la chiave?”

“Nessuno…” cominciò a dire Beckett, ma Alastair lo colpì ancora e poi ancora. Ponendogli sempre le stesse domande. Dove. Chi. Perché. La testa sbatteva da una parte all’altra e la bile gli invadeva la gola. Sembrava davvero la fine di tutto; dopo un giorno trascorso a fare domande e a infliggere dolore, Alastair era giunto al limite. “Cazzo, Alastair; che diavolo c’è che non va in te? Finirai per ucciderlo.” Persino Gregory sembrava sconcertato dalla furia del fratello e Beckett nutrì un briciolo di speranza che il padre intervenisse e lo fermasse.

“Vuoi saperlo? Vuoi sapere davvero cosa stava facendo questo stronzetto?”

“Cosa?” Gregory sembrava smarrito.

“L’ho fatto seguire. Era pappa e ciccia con Elisabeth, come già ben sai, ma me ne sono occupato io. Ieri ha incontrato un investigatore privato, un tale all’interno di un centro commerciale e chi cazzo sa che cosa gli ha consegnato. Le telecamere di sicurezza lo hanno registrato mentre usava il tuo computer, nel tuo ufficio, Greg. Mentre copiava dei file.” Un altro colpo e Beckett sentì la bile salire ancora. Stava per vomitare. Alastair lo tirò in piedi. “Digli che cosa stavi facendo, stronzetto…”

“Studiavo…” Beckett si lasciò sfuggire quella sola parola. Sul viso di Alastair si dipinse un’espressione di scherno.

“Nei tuoi file personali, Greg.”

“Papà?” Beckett indossò un’espressione supplichevole. Tanto valeva usare un eventuale legame, ma negli occhi di Gregory non c’era nulla. Non c’erano compassione né affetto paterno. Solo gelo.

“Non sei venuto qui per cercarmi, Robert.” La voce di Gregory era piatta. Quello che aveva affermato non lasciava adito a dubbi. “Te l’ha detto lei di venire qui? Cosa cercavi? Sei qui per uccidermi? Per vendicarti di quello che le è successo?”

“No…” Beckett restò senza fiato quando Gregory finì quello che Alastair aveva iniziato, mentre quest’ultimo lo teneva fermo. La barriera si era infranta e tutto l’odio e la violenza che Gregory aveva celato dietro la sua maschera di uomo civile esplosero in tutta la loro brutalità. Una scarica di pugni si riversò contro il petto di Beckett, mentre il dolore si irradiava veloce e acuto.

“Li hai fatti vedere a qualcuno? Che ne hai fatto dei file?”

“Non ho… Studiavo…” Beckett si sentì venir meno. La vista gli si offuscava lentamente e l’unica cosa che lo teneva ancora in piedi era la salda presa di Alastair sul suo braccio. Il colpo successivo calò con forza sulla clavicola, dislocandola, e Beckett sentì qualcosa lacerarsi e schioccare nel braccio.

“Te l’avevo detto che parlava con Elisabeth. Cazzo, Greg. Te l’avevo detto che avresti dovuto eliminarlo appena è arrivato qui.” Alastair gli liberò il braccio e Beckett cadde sulla sedia, che scivolò all’indietro finché la spalliera non colpì il letto, e solo la pura forza di volontà mantenne Beckett col busto eretto. “Dovrà morire. Come Elisabeth.”

“Va bene, ma non ho lo stomaco per farlo…” Greg non sembrava triste né addolorato. Le sue parole suonavano amare e distaccate. ”Pensa tu a scoprire quello che sa e cosa ha fatto.”

“Come vuoi. Lascia fare a me.” Il tono di voce di Alastair era paradossalmente euforico. Godeva davvero nel fare del male e uccidere.

“Voglio nomi e numeri e quando avrai finito seppellisci il corpo su in montagna,” disse Greg con tono distaccato. Nel sentire quelle parole Beckett avvertì una scossa di paura risalire lungo la spina dorsale. Sentiva la mente intorpidita e quasi completamente divorata dal terrore. Sollevò la testa, a malapena in grado di scorgere qualcosa attraverso le due fessure dei suoi occhi gonfi. Greg lo fissava.

“Avresti potuto avere tutto Robert. Tutto.”

Poi successe il finimondo.

Grida. Ordini. Una pistola. Uno sparo. Quindi due forti braccia che lo trascinavano in piedi e un borbottio: “Ti ho preso, ragazzo.”

Beckett si lasciò sollevare, preoccupandosi unicamente di recuperare chiave e lettera. Crollò in ginocchio e, mentre l’aria veniva lacerata da un’imprecazione, si affannò là dove Gregory giaceva in mezzo a un lago di sangue. Beckett si impossessò della lettera e poi prese ad armeggiare in mezzo al sangue e ai grumi alla ricerca della chiave. Avvolto da una nebbia di dolore non riusciva a vedere nulla e dovette avanzare a tentoni facendosi largo tra materia e sangue appiccicoso.

“Cazzo. Ragazzo…”

“Aspetta…” Beckett urlò quella parola nella sua testa, ma l’unico suono che uscì davvero dalle sue labbra rotte e sanguinanti fu qualcosa di simile a un mugolio.

“Dobbiamo andare. Dale, Cristo Santo…”

Beckett chiuse le dita attorno alla piccola chiave e si rimise in piedi con un fremito di trionfo.

“Non lo prenderai…” La voce di Alastair, il rumore di una colluttazione e Beckett venne spinto con violenza da dietro. Durante la caduta sbatté la testa contro lo spigolo di un comò e l’ultimo pensiero coerente che riuscì a formulare era che aveva la lettera e la chiave e che era ancora vivo. Il resto si sarebbe messo a posto da sé.

Face Value Audio - Cover Reveal

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Beckett Jamieson, AKA Robert Bullen, has been rescued by Sanctuary from a situation in which he nearly died and is left temporarily blind.

Doctor Kayden Summers is the Sanctuary operative assigned to look out for him.

It soon becomes clear Beckett is the key to evidence left by his mom. Evidence that may well destroy the Bullen family. The two men become involved in a critical retrieval situation and when bullets start to fly there is only one thing between Beckett and death. Kayden.

Focus on the Sanctuary Series - Book 8 coming this Autumn


Morgan Drake witnesses a murder in an alleyway. He is the only person who can give evidence in prosecuting the cop responsible for the crime. When the FBI safe house where he’s being held is compromised, he follows the instructions of his agent in charge and runs.
Nik Valentinov works for Sanctuary, a foundation that offers witness protection when FBI security is questionable.

When Morgan's handler sends him to Nik for safety, neither Morgan nor Nik could imagine that two weeks alone in a cabin in the woods could start something more. Something way more than just trying to keep Morgan alive. Something that makes their heart race more than danger. Love.

Dale MacIntyre, former Navy SEAL, works for Sanctuary. He’s the acting handler for a member of the Bullen family’s inner circle. He’s close to obtaining the evidence he needs to prove Elisabeth Costain's death was ordered by them… until someone gets in his way.

Joseph Kinnon, active Navy SEAL, is back on U.S. soil for the first time in months, and he’s told the tragic news that his stepsister is dead, gunned down in an alley by an unknown assailant. He’s determined to find out who murdered her…until someone gets in his way.
They both want the same thing but have different methods of accomplishing their goals. They both want the Bullen family brought to account, but one wants justice and the other wants revenge. What happens between them, however, has nothing to do with either.
Face Value (#3)

Beckett Jamieson, AKA Robert Bullen, has been rescued by Sanctuary from a situation in which he nearly died and is left temporarily blind.

Doctor Kayden Summers is the Sanctuary operative assigned to look out for him.

It soon becomes clear Beckett is the key to evidence left by his mom. Evidence that may well destroy the Bullen family. The two men become involved in a critical retrieval situation and when bullets start to fly there is only one thing between Beckett and death. Kayden.

Adam is given an assignment - to work with a man he hates. The same man that didn't trust him two years before and destroyed their relationship in a single day.

Lee is adamant that he needs to understand why Adam betrayed the Bureau and the Bullen case is the perfect cover to get back in his ex lover's life.

Against the backdrop of Sanctuary and the Bullen case can they both realise not everything they saw was real ...

Manny Sullivan is the backbone of Sanctuary. He has his fingers in every pie and when he spots Josh Headley where he shouldn't be, it is Manny who goes in and rescues him.

Josh is in Sanctuary witness protection after his dad turns on the Bullens. Not only is his dad a murderer but his ex is a liar who was using him for information. With his skill in information retrieval, he hopes to make a contribution to the solution.

What started with the death of Elisabeth Costain is drawing to a close and Josh and Manny are in the middle of it all.

When Manny risks his life could it finally be time for Josh to risk his heart?

Jake spends every Christmas at Sanctuary One.

From a small child the cabin was home for his family in the special season, and with the third anniversary of his dad's death approaching he arranges for Kayden, Beckett and himself to meet at the cabin a few days before Christmas. When a snowstorm means Kayden is blocked in NY with Beckett, Jake ends up in the cabin on his own.

Sean is being hunted and the only place he can run to is somewhere mentioned in an old journal - the original Sanctuary Cabin. The cabin is no longer in official use but it would be a good place to heal and take stock of just what the fuck is going on with his life.

Neither man is prepared for being stuck together for an entire week, nor for the secrets that threaten to get them both killed.

Worlds Collide (Sanctuary 7)

It is the day after New Years and Dale is en route back to Albany in a private jet with Emily Bullen. She is coming back home after turning states evidence on her husband Senator Thomas Bullen.

What no one factored in, not Sanctuary or the FBI, was the lengths Griffin Ryland would go to in the effort to protect himself.

Joseph finds out Dale is in trouble and it is only with the help of his team of SEALs that he can make sure Dale is safe and that Griffin Ryland can't cause any more trouble.

A snowy New Years, a deserted airport and a hostage situation with people already dead and suddenly the worlds of Sanctuary and the SEALs collide, with terrifying consequences.

Then, two weeks alone at a resort, falling deeper in love leave the two men with decisions to make and suddenly there is the chance to make forever a possibility.

Face Value (Sanctuary 3)

Cover Art by BitterGrace

Sanctuary Series

Book 1 - Guarding Morgan
Book 2 - The Only Easy Day
Book 3 - Face Value
Book 4 - Still Waters
Book 5 - Full Circle
Book 6 - The Journal Of Sanctuary One
Book 7 - Worlds Collide
Book 8 - Accidental Hero
Book 9 - Ghost
Book 10 - By The Numbers

The Book

Beckett Jamieson, AKA Robert Bullen, has been rescued by Sanctuary from a situation in which he nearly died and is left temporarily blind.

Doctor Kayden Summers is the Sanctuary operative assigned to look out for him.

It soon becomes clear Beckett is the key to evidence left by his mom. Evidence that may well destroy the Bullen family. The two men become involved in a critical retrieval situation and when bullets start to fly there is only one thing between Beckett and death. Kayden.

"....As I got to the end of Face Value, I immediately wanted to reach for the next book. And then the one after that. I want to know more ... Mission accomplished, RJ Scott, a job well done...."


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Reviews

Scattered Thoughts and Rogue Words - 4.5/5 -  "....As I got to the end of Face Value, I immediately wanted to reach for the next book. And then the one after that. I want to know more ... Mission accomplished, RJ Scott, a job well done...."

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Mrs Condit & Friends Read Books - 4/5 - "....I really enjoy the story RJ Scott creates. The beginnings of Face Value and The Only Easy Day (#2 in Sanctuary) both have a lot of detail and intensity. The whole Bullen family drama is very interesting. I really like all the characters involved, then are funny, cocky and great at their jobs...."

MM Good Book Reviews - 4/5 - "....A great addition to the Sanctuary series so I recommend this to those who love mystery, suspense, a bit of action, some danger, a budding attraction/relationship and two stubborn men who strike sparks off each other...."

Rainbow Book Reviews - "....This series is managing to keep the suspense going and definitely has my attention. Where we heard from the witness to a brutal murder in the first book, the victim’s step-brother in the second, this third volume now adds the point of view of the victim’s pseudo-boyfriend, who is also a member of the Bullen family, or rather the three brothers who are behind all the illegal activity. This story just gets more interesting every time there is a new book out....."

Audio Excerpt for Face Value




Excerpt

Chapter 1

"What the hell am I looking for?" Beckett Jamieson stood in the center of the room and then spun slowly in a full circle, cataloguing as much as he could. Nothing fit the description of what she had said would be here. There was no carved finial; in fact the bed looked new. Probably a lot newer than the eighteen years ago he was last here. But surely she would have known things could change before his twenty-first birthday. So the carving she talked of, maybe it wasn't a decorative carving on a bed. He looked at the two freestanding drawer units that served as bedside tables. They were frustratingly simple in their design.

"Come on, Mom. There's nothing that looks half way carved in this room. Help me out here." Up until four weeks ago he hadn't known that his birth mother had left this puzzle for him to solve. He had known since his tenth birthday that he was adopted but he had never felt any compulsion to charge across the States looking for nebulous family or for birth parents who clearly hadn't wanted him. Not when he was ten and fixated on Transformers, or fifteen when he realized he was gay, or at eighteen when his college years were just beginning. Twenty-one was the magic year; but not through any intention of his.

His mom and dad, Isla and Derek Jamieson, the people who took him in as a small child, had taken any information they may have had on his real parents to their graves a few years before. All they had ever said was that everything would be made clear when he was twenty-one and old enough to be who he wanted to be. Being called in to meet Austin Mitchell, apparently the family lawyer, had been the catalyst for wanting and needing to know more.

The lawyer—"call me Austin"—had handed him a thick file that contained a letter in a sealed envelope and a carefully wrapped package. The label on the package held a simple missive: Happy twenty-first, Robert, with love, Mom.

"You knew my birth mother?" Beckett always looked on her as that. Isla Compton was his real mom. The one constant in his life; provider of cookies and hugs and one hell of a lot of love.

"I knew her well enough." Austin said this in an utterly matter of fact way but Beckett could see the twitch of his lips and the sadness in his expression. Evidently Austin had known his birth mother well enough to grieve at her loss. Was it possible the older man had known her in a biblical sense?

"Were you…" Beckett wanted to say her lover? her husband? but that would have been rude. He didn't do rude. "Special to her?" He finished lamely. It was all he could think of and a special relationship could explain why the lawyer was tasked with talking to Beckett on his twenty-first. Maybe this older guy was his birth father? Austin, looking a little shaken at the question, simply shook his head.

"So my real name is Robert?"

"Robert Edward Bullen."

Beckett considered the name and its initial implications. He definitely wasn't a Robert. He was Beckett. Beck. In no way was changing his name to Robert happening anytime in his future. There was a tiny teddy bear with the letter—the sort you gave a small child to decorate a crib or a carriage. When Beckett grasped it and felt the soft fur he suddenly wished that it would pull memories of before he was four to the surface. He couldn't recall a single thing and he placed it on the desk.

"What about my birth dad?" Beckett asked carefully. In his head his mother had been a kid who became pregnant with no husband in the picture. It was easy to forgive her for dumping him if he used that reasoning.

"He's still alive," Austin said. Beckett looked up sharply.

"Does he know about me?"

"He knew you. He thought you died in the same car wreck as your mother."

"So she is dead then. She died and then I was adopted. She didn't give me up?"

"No." Austin sighed and briefly closed his eyes. "There was no giving up. She died, you lived." Austin's voice was calm and rational. He continued, "I helped her by taking you and making you safe."

Beckett blinked at the man. He really didn't understand this. It sounded like the plot of a murder novel. "You made me safe? What do you mean?"

"I think the letter will begin to explain. I will give you your privacy and make some coffee for when you are ready to talk. The computer is yours." Austin left the room without a backward glance and Beckett opened the package. Inside was a simple flat wooden box with a dark inked stamp on the lid. He examined the letters on the lid and realized they were his birth initials, RB. Sliding open the lid he found a chain. Heavy and gold, it was definitely a man's chain and it was the size that fitted around a wrist—Beckett's wrist.



Thrown back to the here and now Beckett felt for the chain. The heavy feel of it against his skin was reassuring and a connection to the woman who had brought him into the world. Emma Bullen. The letter had held little except a list of instructions and the usual things he imagined a letter of explanation held. He was Robert Bullen, son of Gregory Bullen, nephew to Senator Thomas Bullen and to Alastair Bullen. His birth father was alive, as were his uncles. It was the odd instruction that he should look for a carved area in his old room that had sent him to the mansion in the Catskills and to his biological father. Of course, he had done his research before he arrived.

What Beckett discovered wasn't as much as he had hoped he would; well, not about his mom anyway. Emma Bullen had died in a car accident along with her son Robert—a fiery death on a twisting road in the mountains not far from the Bullen mansion. There were no witnesses and nothing left of the car except black twisted metal at the base of a cliff. So there he had sat; apparently he was Robert Bullen, and he had learned what he could about his family.

Gregory Bullen, his father, and his uncle, Alastair, were both businessmen with their fingers in one hell of a lot of pies. His other uncle, Thomas, was an honest to God senator, a whiter than white politician who rode high on the platform of strong moral values. The senator wasn't that close to his two brothers but even an idiot who happened upon Greg and Alastair would see what kind of men they were. Mob. In every sense of the word. Extortion, drugs, prostitution; all wrapped up in a cloak of respectability. He wasn't even sure how far the crimes extended.

And now he was in this old bedroom following the instructions from that letter, burned into his memory, looking for carvings that would lead him to God knows what. Whatever he found, she had written in the letter, was enough to make people pay for her death and would give him leverage against the family. Even now that sent a chill down Beckett's spine. She knew she was going to die? That must have been an unbearable weight to hold without cracking.

There were grainy photos on the Internet from newspapers at the time of Emma's death—the three brothers standing at a graveside, and the two coffins; one large and one small. Apparently both coffins were full of not much more than a collection of burned bones. The papers had printed that without apology. Sensationalist journalism at its best.

"Okay," he said softly to himself. "If I was in this room, where would I think was safe?"

Crossing to the dresser, another simple wooden piece of furniture, he ran his fingers over the grain of the wood. When his mother had written the instructions, he had been so little as to have no memories of what this room had looked like.

"Are you okay, son?" Gregory Bullen was at the door and Beckett immediately stood straight. There was a presence about Gregory that scared the shit out of him. The older man was built like a brick house, wide and strong, with years of lines carved into his weathered skin and hair as black as night. Imposing. Forceful. Strong.

"I was just looking." Beckett shrugged. Let Gregory read whatever he wanted into that. His father entered the room and paused to look about him.

"Robert." He acknowledged him. "Your mother," he made a sign of the cross on his chest, "God rest her soul. She loved this room."

"She did?" Beckett couldn't help himself. He was starving for information about the person who had given him life. He even chose to ignore the instant burn of dislike inside him at being addressed as Robert.

"I shouldn't speak ill of the dead, but she was never suited to a grand house like this. She was too simple for this place and she liked this room for what it was; a place to be herself." Gregory said this with a faint hint of fond recollection but Beckett liked to think he could see through it to the intent beneath. There wasn't any love lost in Gregory's voice.

"What did I think of the house when I was here?" Beckett asked curiously. He may as well get some sense of his four-year-old self before he moved on.

"You loved this house. Every corner was a hiding place and every room an adventure." This time there was real emotion in Gregory's voice. Affection? Anger? Beckett wasn't entirely sure. Gregory was a difficult man to feel. He continued, "Your uncle and I are attending our meetings. Would you like to join us in the city?"

Spending an hour in the chauffeur driven limo with Gregory and Alastair Bullen? Gregory as cold as ice and slimy to boot and Alastair a freaking intimidating bully with death in his eyes? Fuck no. Beckett had work to do here. Not least of which was finding any evidence his mother had hidden in this room and trying to get into Gregory's computer for more information. Gregory was trying to make the effort, but not for the first time Beckett felt like there was nothing more than suspicion in their relationship. After all, he had returned after seventeen years and although it had been proven with a paternity test that he was Robert Bullen, Gregory still wasn't throwing his arms wide open to welcome Beckett home. There had been serious discussions on where Beckett had been, who had looked after him, and what did Beckett remember. Beckett never thought he would be relieved he had no family left to speak of.

"No. Thank you," he replied pleasantly. "I have a ton of studying to catch up on." Beckett underlined the decision with what he hoped was a rueful smile and not a forced grimace. Gregory returned the smile although it didn't quite reach his eyes. Beckett wondered what the other man was going to say. He looked to be winding himself up for some emotional outpouring which, every time it happened, screwed with Beckett's head.

"My son, the graduate," he said instead. Then he turned on his heel and was gone.

Beckett waited until the car left; watched as the limo with its curved lines disappeared down the long drive. He added an extra five minutes and then continued to search the room. This time though, he had the freedom to really search and he pulled furniture away from walls.

His deal with the Assistant District Attorney was for him to provide information in return for help to get away. He had already seen what happened to someone who crossed the Bullens. Elisabeth's death showed him that it was easy for someone to die at the hands of whomever the Bullens hired. He didn't think for one minute that being the prodigal son would save him if they found out why he was really here.

That guy yesterday, Dale, had promised that he would help. All Beckett needed was to find the evidence his mom wrote that she had collected. He wondered what he looked for. Was it a disc? This had been seventeen years ago. If it was a disc it was probably some huge package that he hoped like hell hadn't deteriorated to the point of not being readable. Maybe it was notes or photos?

Frustrated that he had found nothing he leaned back against the dresser and bowed his head. Why couldn't he remember more about his childhood? Why was his mind a blank? Lifting his head to the heavens again he uttered a curse word and a plea for inspiration. Which is when he saw it.

The ceiling medallion around the light. Soft carved wood painted over with white gloss. Was it possible this was the place? There was only one way to find out. Pulling the chair from the dressing table to under the light he clambered to reach the carving. There was a lip around the edge that from the floor looked like it met the ceiling but that in actuality left a gap as wide as a finger to reach in. He hoped to hell that he wasn't about to poke his fingers into live wires or spiders and associated creepy crawlies. Excitement had him pushing his hand in flat and reaching around. There was something there. A flat envelope? Papers? Shifting up onto his toes he pushed his hand in farther and managed to wiggle the item out. It finally popped free with a puff of dust which stung his eyes and tickled his nose. Carefully he checked for more inside the medallion but all he felt was wires. Satisfied he had found everything he jumped down from the chair. With a shaking hand he pulled out the single sheet of paper inside. Sighing he realized it was more cryptic notes; he started to re–read. He never saw who it was. Never had a chance to duck. A fist caught the side of his head and when the pain drove him to his knees he knew he was fucked.

"What the fuck are you doing?" Alastair's voice. He clearly hadn't gone with Gregory. It had been a lie that he was going, or a last minute change. Whatever. Alastair had a gun and he was pointing it at Beckett.

Beckett scrambled back and rolled into the bathroom shutting the door and holding it closed with his body. There was no lock. Fuck. Who didn't have a lock on their bathroom door? The solid wood door may hold off a bullet but even so he debated scrambling away from it just in case.

Shit. What the hell was he doing? Why hadn't he tried to talk himself out of this? He could have just said he was… fuck. He didn't have a ready excuse.

"Stop being stupid, Robert, and come out of the bathroom." Alastair's voice was harsh and impatient.

"Beckett. My name is Beckett Jamieson." Beckett shouted and leaned harder on the door as he pulled his cell from his pocket. There was no way out of this bathroom. No external window. The call connected quickly and he blurted out as much as he could. "I'm trapped in a bathroom. I fucked up and I'm scared. I can't get out—" He never finished the call. The door was forced open; his own slight figure nothing to hold back his bear of an uncle and the phone went flying. It smashed into the porcelain of the tub and as suddenly as it had flown from his hand it lay in pieces on the floor.

The door pushed him inward and he grabbed for something to prevent his fall only to be stopped by Alastair grabbing at his neck and hair. Alastair had a choke hold on him and pulled Beckett up off of the ground so hard that Beckett saw spots before his eyes.

"I fucking knew it," Alastair bit the words out angrily and with a shake of his hand Beckett felt consciousness slip away from him.



* * * *



Something was biting into his wrists and it hurt. Rope? Twine? Something hard and unforgiving. Awareness was coming back to him a second at a time and blood coated his tongue. His hands were tied and he was slumped in the same chair he had used to reach the ceiling. His throat hurt. Really. Hurt.

"…computer. The cameras showed us."

"That doesn't mean—"

"Greg, this is why I said I would stay here and why I called you back from the city. I've been at him for nearly twenty-four hours and he's given me shit. The prodigal son returns and you aren't the least bit suspicious? Have you learned nothing? Shit. You always were the loose end in this family. First all-innocence-Emma, then Thomas and that bitch Elisabeth and now your freak of a son. Both my brothers are idiots—"

"Don't talk to me like that—"

"Wait. Pretty boy is all woken up."

Beckett blinked up at his uncle; Alastair's face twisted in a sneer. He was up close and personal in Beckett's face and he could smell the cloying cologne that Alastair must pour over himself. Suddenly he wished he was unconscious again. Alastair had been asking questions, punching him, and leaving him tied up in the bitterly cold room with the windows wide open. He had reached his limit. And now Gregory was here.

"Wha—" Beckett began. He could try and play innocent. Surely it wasn't too late to retrieve some measure of control in this situation? "What happened? What is Uncle Alastair doing to me? Get him to untie me."

Alastair stepped backward with a laugh and Gregory simply shrugged. Okay. Appealing to Gregory about his uncle wasn't going to work.

"Dad?" There. Focus on the man who was responsible for his existence. Pain crossed Gregory's face.

"Alastair?" Beckett watched Gregory appeal to his brother but Alastair shook his head. For a moment Beckett had felt like he'd actually connected with his father but it didn't last.

"No, Greg. I don't know what the fuck this is." Alastair handed the open envelope to Gregory who pulled out a single sheet of paper and a key. "Maybe you'll tell my brother what this is?" Alastair snapped and Beckett flinched as his uncle leaned closer.

"Something I remembered from when I was four," Beckett lied.

"Bull. Shit." The slap that accompanied the two succinct words snapped Beckett 's head sideways and his neck protested with sharp pain. "Read it out loud, Greg. What does it say?"

"You'll need the other one but you know where it is. Texas has it," Gregory read. "Then some shit in letters and numbers." He crumpled the note and threw it on the floor. He turned the key in his hand. It was small and silver; nothing fancy. Beckett watched as Gregory pocketed it.

"The other what?" Alastair shouted into Beckett's ear. "Another key? Where in Texas? Who do you know in Texas? What is the key for?"

"No one—" Beckett started but Alastair hit him again, and again. Always with the same questions. Where. Who. Why. His head snapped from side to side and bile clawed his throat. This seemed like the end of things; after a day of questions and dealing out pain Alastair was finally at the edge.

"Fuck, Alastair; what is wrong with you? You'll kill him." Even Gregory seemed shocked by the level of anger in Alastair and Beckett felt a glimmer of hope that Gregory would step in and stop this.

"You wanna know? You really want to know what this little shit has been doing?"

"What?" Gregory sounded lost.

"I had him followed. He was cozy with Elisabeth, you know that, but I dealt with that. Then he had a meeting yesterday with a PI, some guy in a shopping center and fuck knows what he handed over. Security cameras have him using your computer in your office, Greg. Taking copies of files." Another hit and Beckett felt bile rise in him. He was going to be sick. Alastair pulled him to his feet. "Tell him what you were doing you little shit—"

"Studying—" Beckett blurted out the single word. Alastair's expression held derision.

"In your private files, Greg."

"Dad?" Beckett pasted his best pleading expression on his face. May as well use the possible connection. There was nothing in Gregory's eyes. No compassion or fatherly affection. Just ice.

"You never came here to find me, did you Robert." Gregory's voice was flat. There was no question in what he said. "Did she tell you to come here? What did you come here to do? Kill me? Avenge what happened to her?"

"No—" All the breath left his body as Gregory ended what Alastair had started even as Alastair held him. The barrier had broken and the hate and violence Gregory had been hiding behind his mask of civility was out in force. The punches he threw connected with Beckett 's chest, the pain quick and sharp.

"Have you shown anyone? What did you do with the files?"

"I didn't—I was studying—" Beckett felt consciousness slip away from him. Step by step his vision was blurring and the only thing keeping him standing was the tight grip Alastair had on his arm. The next hit wrenched the socket hard and he felt something tear and snap in his arm.

"I told you he was talking to Elisabeth. Fuck, Greg. I told you we should have shut him down as soon as he arrived here." Alastair released his arm and Beckett dropped to the chair. It scooted backward until the wooden back hit the bed and only sheer willpower kept Beckett upright. "He'll need to die. Like Elisabeth."

"Okay. I don't have the stomach for this—" Greg didn't sound sad or grieved. His words were bitter and staccato. "You find out what he knows. What he's done."

"I got it, brother. Leave it to me." There was an unholy glee in Alastair's voice. This was a man who enjoyed hurting and killing.

"I want names and numbers and when you're finished put his body on the mountain." Greg said dispassionately. Beckett heard the words and fear chased up his spine. Mind numbing and utterly all-consuming terror. He lifted his head, barely able to see through the slits of his swollen eyes. Greg was staring at him. "You could have had it all Robert. All of it."

Then everything went to hell.

Shouting. Demands. A gun. A shot. Then strong arms pulling him upright and a muttered. "Got you, kid."

Beckett allowed himself to be pulled up, his only conscious thought getting to the key and the letter. He fell to his knees, the curse of whoever held him ripe in the air, and scrambled to where Gregory lay in a widening pool of blood. Beckett snatched at the letter and then dug through blood and gore to find the key. He couldn't see anything in the blur of pain and was feeling his way around pushing aside material and sticky blood.

"Fuck. Kid—"

"Wait—" he screamed the words in his head but all that left his cracked, bloodied lips was a near whimper.

"We gotta go. Dale, for fuck's sake—"

Beckett's fingers closed around the small key and with a thrill of triumph he clambered to stand.

"You're not taking him—" Alastair's voice, the sound of a scuffle and Beckett was pushed violently from behind. As he fell his head connected with the edge of the dresser and his last conscious thought was that he was alive and he had the letter and the key. The rest would sort itself out.


Chapter 2



"It's been three days. Shouldn't he at least be conscious?" The words filtered into Beckett's thoughts. His dreams. Experimentally he attempted to turn his head, anything but nothing happened. His brain told him he could move but his body wasn't helping.

"Today." Another voice replied simply.

"He still looks like shit." The first voice was familiar. Beckett wanted to ask who it was. Where was he? Why couldn't he move?

"He'll be back to being a pretty boy in days." The second man was talking with very little emotion in his voice, not like the first who seemed anxious. Was this second guy a doctor? Was it two doctors? "Talking of pretty boys, I am assuming Joseph has gone now?"

"Ten minutes ago." That sounded like Dale. So he was with Dale? Inch by inch the tension seeped from his brain. If Dale had him then he wasn't near Gregory and Alastair Bullen.

"That was some intense shit you had going with super-SEAL." The second guy's tone was pure sarcasm.

"Yeah." A loud laugh framed the response "He's an intense guy."

"You're good together—"

"Jeez, Kayden, that sounds almost poetic coming from you."

"Fuck poetic. Just, the ass on that man, hell, not to mention you. That is one SEAL sandwich I would die to get in the middle of."

There was laughter and the other guy left, leaving the one called Kayden with Beckett. He knew that because Kayden was talking to him. Soft and low, his voice was like honey and Beckett desperately tried to move to acknowledge he could hear. The voice was reassuring, comforting and he was clinging to every syllable.

"Hell," Kayden was saying, "damn idiot operative falls in love with a SEAL. Can't see that lasting past the next mission. If you're gonna be gay you need to choose the ones who don't go off getting themselves shot at." There was a pause and Beckett felt hands on him pressing and pushing over his body. Kayden continued conversationally, "But, shit kid, the chemistry those two had going was intense. Wish you coulda woken up in time to see Joseph. Hell, he was a sight for sore eyes. Tall and dark, with the sweetest ass you ever laid your eyes on. Not that this would interest you normal types. But jeez. To tap that… hmmmm.

"Now Robert… how about you open your eyes for me?"

Beckett, I'm Beckett. Please don't call me Robert. The words just wouldn't form. Trapped in his head they buzzed and clung to his brain.

"I know you're in there, kid." Kayden continued. "Your vitals are good, your responses are mostly there but you won't let yourself wake up. So how about opening your eyes for me? I could use the company."

Beckett tried damn hard. He wanted to see the man whose voice was a balm to his pain. He forced himself to relax as tension and pain knifed through his head. Unbearable pain. It had to stop. He wanted to open his eyes. Open your eyes. Open.

I want to open my eyes.

"Okay. I get it. You think I'm going to be boring."

No. Please help me with the pain.

"So. You're not waking up this morning then. Shit. I bet Dale a twenty you'd be awake today. Don't you go making a liar out of me, kid. I want you up and at 'em by evening." Kayden, his doctor it seemed, had a voice that wrapped its way around his thoughts. It made Beckett want to wake up for the Doc. "I'm pushing your meds 'cause you look like shit."

Meds? Meds were good. But what kind of doctor spoke like that? And Dale was here? Dale whom he'd spoken to in the coffee shop? Dale who had promised he would be okay? Wait. Was it Dale at the mansion? Was it Dale who had spoken to him and held him together in the stumbling half-conscious walk from mansion to car? A trickle inside him and the pain in his head began to ease.

"So, I'll be outside if you need me, Robert, yeah? Usual place, kid."

Stop calling me Robert.

Stop calling me kid.



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Doctor Kayden Summers wasn't feeling this case at all. Not only was it a non-official off-record-but-really-Sanctuary case, which made the whole thing a pain in the ass, but the kid remained unconscious. He prided himself on knowing what a patient needed. Hell, he was a fully-fledged doctor at twenty-six with four years ER training under his belt and a raft of experience in blunt trauma that went years back.

Given his experience of patient care, the kid should be awake by now. As much as he'd joked with Dale, the part where the kid wasn't waking up formed a worry that niggled at him. He made coffee and slumped in the plush sofa of the main lounge. The room was closest to the medical area and if he didn't have the TV on he could hear if he was needed. Television was a necessary evil and he only watched it to catch up on news. It wasn't as if he were a sports fan, or that much into reality TV, to bother with it. Given he hadn't seen a television until the age of around thirteen meant his formative years had shaped him into someone that really couldn't be bothered with the shit forced on most kids.

His cell vibrated and danced on the wooden table that he had his feet up on and he glanced at the caller ID. For some reason Jake had a stick up his ass about where Kayden's head was at. He didn't answer. He may well owe Jake Callahan his life but that didn't mean he had to put up with the shit that Jake kept throwing at him. The phone vibrated again. It moved closer to the edge of the table. Next time it would fall off into the deep pile rug. That would solve the problem.

"I'm packing up," Dale announced from the doorway.

"Thought you were here for two more days?"

"Nik's picking me up and Jake called." As he spoke Dale checked his gun and then he slid it into his shoulder holster. "He had a message for you."

"Yeah?" Kayden could well imagine what Jake wanted to say to him.

"He says, and I quote, 'get that fucker to answer his phone'." A grin broke across Dale's face. Smiling was something Dale had been doing a lot of in the past few days and it unnerved Kayden. A fuck was a fuck. Sex had never made Kayden freaking smile like some hormonal girl. He ignored the feeling of envy that pricked inside him at what Dale seemed to have found with Joseph. They didn't know he'd been listening, but he couldn't help it. Hearing exchanged promises of more for both of them was wrong in Kayden's head. Man or woman, nothing lasted long enough in this world for enduring attachments. Dale may well fancy himself in love with Joseph but love was like having a perpetual Achilles heel.

Attachments? Love? Just makes you weak, boy.

His dad's words were indelibly etched into his soul. That and ten years of military-based training. He had stopped listening to his dad's warped view of the world a long time before the old man died. He smirked inwardly and some of that humor must have shown on his face.

"What's funny?" Dale asked as he rolled his neck and stretched.

"Nothing. Just shit in my head." He shrugged and Dale crossed his arms over his chest.

"Phone Jake, yeah?" he said simply.

"If I have to." Subject closed, Kayden deliberately picked his cell up from the table and pretended to scrutinize it. Dale huffed his own laugh and left, presumably to pack his gear. Kayden wondered for a moment if Dale's new posting was all on the up and up, or if it was more of this unofficial shit. If the case he was on now, babysitting this kid who'd had the snot kicked out of him, had been official then Sanctuary would have put him in one of the city located safe houses with medical units. Being out in the middle of freaking nowhere surrounded by trees and behind a wall of security smacked too much of his childhood. Jake knew damn well Kayden only took cases in the damn city. So why dump him here?

His cell vibrated again and Kayden simply turned the phone off. All he was doing was delaying the inevitable lecture. He wasn't actually cutting off total lines of communication simply because the whole place was wired to Sanctuary ops. Jeez. You could even contact them from the bathrooms. Still, he felt a little thrill at ending the call. Jake Callahan may well be rich enough to have created, run, and built the Sanctuary Foundation but hell if that meant a thing to Kayden. To him, Jake was his annoying elder stepbrother. The young man who, at the tender age of nineteen along with his dad, had liberated Kayden and a few others from a compound at the ass end of nowhere. An ex-veteran compound, it was all Kayden had known from a young age but when Jake arrived as part of some liberating mission, fourteen-year-old Kayden had been the first to switch sides.

Hell. That was only because his dad had made him.



"You're a waste to us here. Fucking useless when all you want to do is book learn." His dad had spat that at him with the fire of trauma-driven hate in his eyes. "May as well do what they say and move out. I can't protect you no more. You have to make your own way." Stupid thing was, book learning remained a useful tool. With both the learning and the experience Kayden was the best in the compound. The best learner, the best fighter, the best at strategy. Still, nothing he had done for his father had ever been good enough and the young Kayden had tried so damn hard every single day.



Kayden closed his eyes and leaned his head back on the sofa. Only when his dad had held his hand tightly with blood and air escaping his chest from a wound as big as Kayden's fist did he get the real reason why his dad had screamed he was useless. It was, according to the fucking idiot, the only way Jack Summers knew to get him to leave the place that his dad called his own form of sanctuary.

God knows why Kayden was so damned introspective today. He turned the cell back on and near immediately it vibrated in his hand. This time Kayden answered the call with a curt hello.

"Kayden. Stop avoiding my calls." Jeez. Jake sounded pissed.

"I'm not avoiding them. I was busy." Kayden lied. Jake didn't even call him on it but he was used to Kayden's avoidance tactics.

"Dale's been re-assigned so you're Robert Bullen aka Beckett Jamieson's case controller now."

"There's not a lot to control. The kid's still unconscious."

"Still?" Jake sounded skeptical and professional pride put Kayden's back up. He contemplated retorting with reasons why the kid, beaten to within a breath of dying, was probably not choosing to join humanity for a while but he didn't. That the trauma the young man had undergone had left him with internal injuries and a fractured arm and swelling so bad on his face that it was near unthinkable he would ever heal. Instead, Kayden resorted to what Jake expected from him. What everyone expected from him.

"I poked him with a stick. He didn't move."

Jake snorted. He could see through his brother's smoke blowing instinctively. "Just keep me apprised."

"I'll keep you apprised." Kayden confirmed with sarcasm dripping from the words.

"Hell K, what crawled up your ass and died?" For the first time in a while Jake sounded stressed and tired. It wasn't easy juggling millions of dollars in investments to the face of the world and then running Sanctuary behind the scenes. Added to that he knew Jake was being shadowed by some kind of FBI internal investigator. What the hell for no one other than Jake knew. As a man he should be respecting Jake and answering civilly. As a younger brother he really didn't know what to say to Jake's question. 'You sent me to the middle of freaking nowhere with a comatose patient', would probably be a start. Instead he just chose silence and finally Jake huffed his disapproval. "Not all your cases can be action filled little brother."

Kayden frowned and felt more than a little uncomfortable. Jeez. How did Jake do that? How did he manage to cut to the heart of what drove Kayden's bad mood.

"You know I don't do sitting around well. I have all this need in me to get physical. I'd give anything for a good fist fight," Kayden replied. Jake was the only one on this earth he would ever say that to. The restrained violence that lived inside of Kayden was only thinly veiled by civility. He had a temper but it never blew. He couldn't allow it to. That would mean losing control and Kayden didn't lose control. Ever.

"A few days, K. Get him awake and debrief him. Then we can move him to another safe house, assign this elsewhere." He paused and Kayden imagined his brother ticking off items in his head. "Also, we have a training camp for some newbies and I could use your skills on that after you're done."

Great. Just what he needed. Raw recruits from the alphabets—FBI, CIA, who the hell ever. All needing to be retaught skills and how to control being the one that stopped the bullet.

"I need my martial arts expert," Jake continued. "I need the strategy expert."

"Yeah, yeah." Kayden waved away the words. He didn't need to hear he was the best. Jake had him on the training team for hand to hand, strategy and survival. Whatever people insisted on labeling his skills, he knew that was the type of thinking that led to letting your guard down, didn't keep you at your peak. He had learned his lessons well and scars on his back and thighs proved just how much he had suffered for what he got wrong. At least in Sanctuary the training was civilized and included beer after. The irony of it all was being so damn good at hurting and defending didn't count for anything when the call to want to train as a medic happened. The intensity of his focus led him to want to be a healer. He had seen so much illness and pain, psychological damage, and PTSD that went untreated or remained misunderstood when his dad refused outside help for his fellow Veterans. Kayden wanted to learn to fix everyone. Jake had never commented when Kayden had announced his degree choice. Just supported the decision in the way an elder brother would.

Kayden's portion of the Callahan estate stretched into the millions and became his entitlement when Callahan senior had adopted Kayden officially. Not that Kayden wanted it nor did he officially change his surname from Summers. Still. It saw him through medical school and as soon as he had that pass under his belt he was back at Sanctuary. Home.

"I'll get him conscious, assess him, then pass him off. Agreed?" Kayden asked. Kayden could help a person heal physically. He knew exactly how every nerve and muscle connected in a web of life inside a broken body. He could support broken bones and organize meds. He just preferred it when his patients were awake.

Jake sighed. "Okay. Agreed. Keep in touch, K."

"Yeah." He ended the call there. They didn't need to exchange anything else. What was unsaid remained in his head and would be in Jake's. The brotherly things that men had a hard time vocalizing.

"He give you a hard time?" Dale piled three bags on the table and knocked Kayden's feet off of their comfortable perch.

"Big brothers do that." Kayden offered with a grimace.

"Did he mention the training camp?" Dale wasn't looking at him. He was rifling through his munitions bag and carefully pulling pieces of a dismantled Sig from the inside.

"Yeah, he did."

"You take care," Dale said simply. He picked up his bags and with the disarming wide grin, that really would not give up, Dale left Sanctuary eighteen.



* * * *



Kayden checked in on the kid and analyzed another problem he was having at the moment. The young guy remained unconscious and the bruising on his face was spectacular; a myriad of green and black as well as splits in the skin. The bruises would disappear; the splits would close when the swelling decreased. Under the sheet Robert's body was covered in similar marks. Clearly the Bullen brothers had decided that the prodigal son's return was a good excuse for using the kid as a punching bag. Kayden wondered if Robert had given anything up under the punishment that had been meted out. What the hell did they think he had that warranted this kind of abuse? Compassion flooded him as it did whenever an innocent was caught up in something dark and undefinable.

Had he broken or had Dale and Joseph arrived in time to stop anything being said? Gregory may well be dead but Alastair was alive and bemoaning his brother's terrible self-inflicted accident. Kayden pulled the sheet back to check on his patient and that there was where his final source of stress with this whole shit-fest of an assignment lay. Shit, the kid was pretty.

Very fit, tall and slim but not too skinny. Possibly five nine or ten he was all lean, toned flesh with a swimmer's build—narrow and spare. He was naked under the sheet and Kayden felt like some kind of pervert to be checking vitals and at the same time checking everything else. Every single mark and muscle stood indelibly burned into Kayden's brain. From the top of his patient's head and his short dark hair to the tip of his toes he was gorgeous and that thought made him squirm.

Kayden was twenty-six; only five years older than the kid in years but so much older in experience. That didn't stop Kayden from thinking what he did. Shit. Really, under the bruises and the pain the kid was gorgeous. And the very fact that Kayden even registered that with someone as young and in need of protection as Robert Bullen made him feel sick with himself. Besides, Robert was straight as evidenced by the girlfriend murdered in the alley.

It had been too long since he had enjoyed fucking someone. At least three months. Way too long. Perving on a patient was top of his no go list.

Dropping the sheet he edged back, noted vitals on the pad at the end of the bed then left his patient's room. For some really strange reason he couldn't bear to be in the same room as the innocent youth that lay in that bed.